Got full marks for my prac today!! Thanks entirely to Dave. My soul, don't know what the hell i would've done if it weren't for him last night. Anyway, it sucks that he just gives me shit any time i want to genuinly tell him how grateful i was. I mean, he had to work this morning AND he's still getting better AND he really had better things to do with time than help me. But he did. and it just made the whole thing bearable and i would've taken AGES otherwise because i just wasn't focussed. Couldn't focus. same thing today. somehow it just hurts too much. I just walked out of my test today because i couldn't take it any more. Fortunately Nikitah and Enrique afterwards were there too and that helped.

 

I have to destoke. Dave might be coming. And if he does then i must be totally destoked by the time he arrives. but fuck would that be good, truth be told. To just so much as touch him again would truly be incredible. So much has just happened between us and it's so shitty that we can't physically be with each other to experience it fully. But it really is just so much more bearable with Skype. I think that's the only way I'm surviving.

 

 

 

That aside, i'm fucking sore and really should sleep. Harv messaged again. Hmmmm....